Ok, so now what?

Been a weird week.  Sunday night 'Joe' came down, we watched movies until shortly before 6am, then I woke up the girl for school and passed out cold for about 5 hours.  Got the boy sent over to his grandmothers and 'Joe' and I headed out for our 'date day'.  Headed up to Niagara Falls, parked and walked to Mr Sub to eat lunch, and then to Starbucks for a frappuccino.  Then we walked forever down to the falls.  Hung out watching the water for a bit, and then bought tickets for Journey Behind the Falls (which was cool because it was one of the few things I've never done there before).  Was awhile before it started so we walked allllll the way to the Botanical Gardens and wandered around.  Then walked all the way *back* to the Journey behind the Falls building.  It was pretty cool, had fun, got some nice pics.

So then we walked back towards Clifton Hill, by this time my legs were begging to just be left alone to die.  We start walking up the hill when all of a sudden he stops and turns to me and asks, 'Do you trust me?'  And I'm all 'uhhh...what?'  So he asks me again and I say 'Um, I don't know?' So he drags me into the Haunted House and I'm like ahhhhh no.  I put up a bit of a fight...but he still won.  I made him go first and clutched either his shirt or his arm the entire time (which I think was probably his plan :P) 

Anyway, after that fiasco, we made it to the top of the hill alive, where I had to stop for awhile.  We started discussing dinner, and had decided on the casino buffet.  Then I realized it was like a half hour walk away still and I almost started to cry  lol  All of a sudden TGI Fridays loomed and we changed our mind and ate there.  Food was great, but then when we left, I realized not only was it still fucking hot but now I was also so full I could barely move....and the car was still 30 mins away.  We finally made it to the car, with me turning into somewhat of a whiner on the way.  Got home, talked to the kids and then he left to head home since its a little over 90 mins away and he had to be at work for 3:30 the next morning.

He said he would like to come down again Thursday night/Friday so I said that was fine.  The day out felt like a day out with a friend though.  And I told him that.  Also told him that maybe it will just take some time to get over the 'friend zone' thing.

So he comes down Thursday straight from work in his little airport uniform, and again, we watched movies and stuff most of the night.  Next day I wasn't feeling too great, so we didn't do much.  Went out for lunch, took the girl to her dads house, and then just came back here and watched another movie before he left.

Again...still no different than just hanging out with a friend.  I like the guy, he's thoughtful and sweet, gentle mannered, and doesn't act like he's 9.  But there's no 'spark'.  I don't know whether it's because I've only seen him as just a friend for so long or what, but I knew that it wouldn't be able to turn into anything serious.

I talked to him about it yesterday and needless to say he was a little crushed.  I felt like crap for hurting his feelings, although not intentionally.  He logged off and said if I wanted to talk to him later I could call, but that he was getting off the computer.  I didn't call because I didn't know what to say.  We spoke today while he was at work, and he said he was better and I let him know why I didn't call.  Things seemed to be ok but I could tell the dynamics had changed.
 
Now...he had been seeing this other girl when he told me that he had feelings for me.  He had told me about her previously and told me how somewhat crazy she was and that he was ending things with her as soon as he could see her in person again (which was supposed to be before he came down here the first time but she canceled).  Now he's not the player type, he's always been committed and loyal, so I wasn't worried that's that what he was doing.  So all this time we spent together this past week, he had still been technically dating her, though she hadn't so much as talked to him in a week. 


So he tells me that tonight he's going to her place to finish things off.  Then tonight he tells me he didn't, that she was 'very' happy to see him and had missed him etc and how different her attitude was this time.  So now I'm wondering if he was going to break up with her only if I said 'yes' and that because I didn't, he's staying with her just as a fallback type thing...he said he didn't want to stay with her just because he was lonely, but...I dunno, it seems weird. 

We'll see what happens, I do kind of miss talking to him as much as we had been in the last little bit, but I also know if I were to decide to give things a try, in the long run it wouldn't work.  There's just none of that relationship attraction going on at all.  Maybe it's time to check out the dating sites again and end up with some great stories to share :p

One of the underground tunnels we were in.  That opening right there?  Yeah that's Niagara Falls, we were in a tunnel behind it.  I was impressed.